I was looking for something else, and in my archives I found this post. I am aware that I occasionally blog about the strain of being an academic, but the good thing about posts like that is to discover that yes, I get over the dark, impossible moments when oblivion seems like such a good idea and I worry that my hard disk is full. I do get back to working, and what I expect to be normal IS actually normal. The pain, stress and exhaustion is the anomaly, not the touch of satisfaction and even happiness.
So yeah, hereby noted, life is good at this side of the computer, and I am throwing myself into the new year and the tasks of teaching knowing full well it will drain me - and that I will come out this spring still on my feet.